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What a difference a year makes…

Last year at this time, I was just a few days past my embryo transfer, and was hoping and praying for a miracle. I had already been through so much — multiple miscarriages, lots of tests, a ton of poking and prodding by my doctors, and then a shift to try IVF as last resort to help me get and stay pregnant. Thankfully, it worked! I vividly remember the call from my doctor telling me that I was pregnant and then suffering through hyper-stimulated ovaries for weeks on end until my HCG levels normalized.

During the first trimester, we went in for an ultrasound to check on our baby’s growth every week. Those appointments were both frightening and exciting. Seeing the amazing changes and growth that embryo went through was truly remarkable, but I was terrified about having another miscarriage. Week after week, I was reassured that he was growing and everything was normal. I had never wanted to be “normal” so badly in my life. Thankfully, my 2nd and 3rd trimesters were normal — I was healthy and little man was healthy — and I had a relatively “easy” delivery!

I didn’t realize how hard my fertility journey was on me and my psyche. I really wasn’t myself for so long. Going through years of pain and loss wore me down. Luckily, I have an amazing support network that helped me to continue in our journey to have a child. Now that we have our son, I know that every ounce of pain, every tear, and every loss was worth the happiness I now have. My soul has been renewed; I am happier, more positive, and feel better about life. I am back to the woman I was before all of this started, and am SO grateful for the life I have. It’s truly amazing the difference a year can make…

Baby dust to those of you who are still in the midst of your struggle — I hope and pray that you get your miracle soon!

 

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36 Weeks — Baby is ready!

Happy New Year! We had our 36-week check-up today, and Baby W has turned! He is head down and he has descended into the pelvic area. I am so relieved. He’s also measuring perfectly weighing in around 6.5 pounds. If he continues to gain weight at this rate, he’ll weigh between 8-8.5 pounds at delivery — just perfect! He’s also at a very low risk of getting “stuck,” so that’s also good news. Since we are in our last month, we now go to the OB every week — WOO!

In other baby-related news, hubby and I went paint shopping over the weekend, and selected the paint for Baby W’s room. We are going with a sports theme — one wall will be painted to resemble a baseball and the other three walls will be a beautiful blue color. We also purchased an unfinished dresser from Ikea and are going to either paint or stain it. I am leaning towards painting the dresser in a fun way to match the theme of the room… I guess we’ll wait and see. We also picked out curtains — they are red and match the “stitch” in on the baseball wall. I promise to post pictures soon. I honestly can’t wait until it’s done — it’s basically the last thing we need to finish before our little boy arrives.

Also, I am excited to report that our beginning stash of cloth diapers will arrive this week. My parents have been generous enough to buy all the diapers for us — I can’t wait until they arrive. We started with a few of a couple different brands to see what we like and to give us some time to adjust to having a newborn before we fully transition to using only cloth diapers. Once they arrive, I will wash them and get them ready for diaper changes. In preparation, I have been reading a lot about cloth diapering — if you’re interested, here are some great sites to learn more:

http://blog.diapershops.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/08/The-Busy-Mom-Guide-Sept-2011.pdf

http://www.theclothdiaperreport.com/cloth-diapering-101

http://www.kitchenstewardship.com/2012/04/25/7-tips-for-the-cloth-diapering-newbie-guest-post/

Finally, we had a wonderful holiday season. I had a lot of vacation time to burn (we can’t carry vacation time over, so I had to use it), so had a very restful and much-needed 2 weeks of downtime. We spent the holidays at home, which was a little weird. I definitely missed spending time with family on Christmas. On the bright side, my hubby’s parents, brother, and sister came for a short visit right after Christmas. We had an absolutely lovely time! I made a yummy dinner on Friday night and we opened Christmas presents. I received many wonderful gifts for both me and the baby. On Saturday, the girls did a little shopping (always a lot of fun), and then went into NYC for a show and delicious dinner. On Sunday, we had brunch, and everyone left. It was a short visit, but we had a great time, and I am already looking forward to the next time we see them. I have to say one of the best parts about having a baby (other than having a beautiful little angel to love and take care of) is that family visits happen more often 🙂 — so happy!

I hope everyone is doing well and had a fabulous holiday season!

Baby dust to all!

33+ Weeks — Size of a pineapple

We are more than 33 weeks pregnant! It’s definitely hard to believe that time is moving so quickly, and now it seems to be moving even more quickly because of the holiday season. I still feel pretty good, although I am definitely feeling more belly heavy :). Sleeping is going pretty well — I wake up quite often each night (every 2 hours or so) to pee, but I have been able to get more comfortable. Thank goodness for my pregnancy pillow and tons of other pillows. The more support I have under my belly and behind my back really matters. I do tend to wake up around 4 or 4:30 each morning and have a bit of trouble getting back to sleep, but if that’s the worst thing to happen, then I am pretty lucky.

I am still suffering from heartburn… ugh! I finally caved and started taking Zantac every 12-24 hours. It has made a huge difference, and I am thankful that such a medicine is available over the counter. My doctor reassured us that Zantac is perfectly safe, which makes me feel even better about this decision.

At this point, we still have quite a bit to do before Baby W’s arrival. This week, I want to get his car seat fitted to my car. We also need to practice how to adjust it and use some of the other gadgets we received at our shower. After Christmas, we are going to move furniture around in our bedroom and put Baby W’s bassinet in the room as well as begin to prepare his nursery. I am so excited about his room, and can’t wait to pull it all together :). YAY! On the bright side, all of his clothes, blankets, and sheets are washed and sorted by size, and his diaper bag is packed and ready to go. I also packed my hospital bag earlier today, and will put it in my car just in case we need to make a fast dash to the hospital. Hubby also has to pack an overnight bag since he’ll be staying with me in the hospital. Fun, fun!

We are also finishing up our childbirth classes this week — OMG! I am a big fan of learning as much as possible about what to expect, and feel like our classes have helped a lot. We had a great newborn basics class last week, which really helped to understand baby basics. We learned everything from how to bathe, swaddle, and change a diaper to what to expect in terms of vaccinations and medical care. On Tuesday, we’ll go on the hospital tour, learn more about how to push properly, and discuss any questions we have. It’s hard to believe that it’s already our last class…

Wishing everyone a great week!

Playing Catch-Up: Thanksgiving, Work Craziness, Childbirth Class, and Holiday Party Fun!

Hi Blog Land! We have been so busy since Thanksgiving — getting ready for the holidays, holding our annual holiday party, and Christmas shopping for family and the kids we “adopted.” Fun time!

We had a wonderful Thanksgiving with family — our last one without Baby W! We drove to Pittsburgh — about 5 hours away — on Thanksgiving Day morning. It was a pretty easy drive with very little traffic. We did have to make a few more stops than normal, but we still made it in a good time. We checked into our hotel, got settled in, and took our pup for a walk. We then met our mom and dad for a quick lunch. After lunch, we relaxed and got ready for dinner. My hubby’s grandma always hosts Thanksgiving at her country club, which is great — lots of time with family, really good food (and, yes, we eat Turkey and all the fixings), and no one has to cook or clean! It was great to see everyone — everyone told me how great I look which made me feel really good about myself :). On Friday, we went to lunch with the family, and then we visited with some friends. We normally spend every holiday with family, but this year, since I’ll be 36+ week prego, we are spending Christmas at home. It will be strange, but is definitely a worthwhile sacrifice.

We returned home late on Friday night, and I have to say, I was thoroughly exhausted. I honestly wish I could have slept all day on Saturday, but that wasn’t in the cards. Instead, we had a few errands to run — shopping fun, lunch, Christmas tree, and decorations. By the time we got home, I was so tired that I started to decorate, then finally decided it was futile and lay down for a nap. It was one of those naps that rejuvenated every part of my mind and body. I felt great after waking up, and was able to accomplish a good deal of holiday decorating. Sunday was a bit more of the same — decorating and grocery shopping, but I was able to get a lot done to prepare for the week, which is always good.

Work has been crazy the last few weeks. We are making more changes — pretty typical at my place of employment — and these changes will have a pretty big impact of my day-to-day work. I am not in danger of losing my job, but I will definitely have a different job soon, which makes going out on maternity leave in January a little more daunting. Oh well… I am trying to not stress about it since I don’t have a lot of control over the situation. The most important thing is that I will have a job, and that I will still be able to work a from home. My commute to our NYC office is about 1.5 to 2 hours each way, and isn’t doable everyday, especially with a baby at home.

We also started our Childbirth Education classes — it’s a 4-week series that meets at our hospital. The instructor has a wealth of knowledge, and really loves working with soon-to-be parents. We learned all about the stages of labor and practiced some breathing exercises. The time went very quickly, and I was pleasantly surprised about how much I already knew — my reading and research is paying off! We also watched a video of a birth, which helped to give a good sense of the emotion of the experience. So much to look forward to :). This week, we have our second childbirth class and a breastfeeding class. I continue to fear that I am going to struggle with breastfeeding, and am hoping this class will set my  mind at ease…

We also had our annual Holiday Party last night. I took Friday off to finish last-minute decorating, clean the house, and grocery shop. The last few years, we’ve done a cookie exchange, but this year, I decided that a potluck would be better. Baking 300+ cookies and making all the food for the party is a little more daunting when you’re 32 weeks pregnant :). Yesterday, I woke up early, and cooked all day. Luckily, one of my dear friends came over and helped with everything — she is awesome! We made two kinds of cookies, a pumpkin chocolate gingerbread, meatballs, buffalo chicken dip, artichoke spinach dip, and a veggie lasagna — yes, we went overboard, especially since everyone was bringing a dish (or two) to the party.

The party was a lot of fun — a little smaller than normal (about 20ish people) — and a little tamer, but we still had a great time! I love spending time with our friends — we really are fortunate to have many, many wonderful people in our lives! They are loving, caring, and very supporting! By the end of the night, my feet and back were killing me, and I was so happy to go to bed! My hubby did most of the cleaning — thank goodness — which meant I woke up to a pretty clean house. YAY! We also have a good deal of leftovers, so I shouldn’t have to cook that much this week :). Double YAY!

Here’s to a great week!

 

 

 

30 Weeks — Baby Shower, Heartburn, and Doula Fun (Oh My!)

Hi All! I am almost 30 weeks pregnant — YAY! I can’t believe that we are moving into single-digit countdown territory — oh my goodness. The time is moving so quickly — it feels like the weeks are just flying by and that January will be here before I know it. YAY!

It has been an exciting and wonderful 2 weeks full of a lot of baby fun. First, my sister-in-law hosted an amazing baby shower for me. Every detail was perfect from the amazing baseball-themed invitations to the delicious food and the fabulous decor. She really outdid herself planning everything. I know she had a lot of help from my mom, her mom, and my best friends, and I am so grateful to all of them for their continued love and support. Baby W received SO many presents — he has a complete wardrobe for the next 9-12 months, and his nursery will be fully stocked with his crib and other baby goodies like his bouncer, swing, pack and play, and high chair. We also received a lot of books — I can’t wait to read to him! We have a lot of work to do to get his nursery ready, but can’t get started on it until the end of December. We rent out 2 rooms in our house, and one of the rooms is going to be our nursery. We have the basic nursery stuff planned out and are going to pick out colors this weekend, but it will be a mad dash to get everything done before he arrives. Thankfully, we will have a lot of help from my brother, best-friend, and other close friends :). I just can’t wait to see it all done and organize everything in his room!

Second, my heartburn is awful. I hate heartburn — I suffered from it at times before pregnancy, but now it’s just terrible. It basically flares up every time I eat or drink anything, even water. I take tums often, which provide quick, but not continuous relief. It’s definitely worse at night — I can literally feel it burning a hole through me — which often prevents me from sleeping. I wake up every two to three hours to pee and to take some tums. Lately, I have been struggling to fall back to sleep around 4 or 5 in the morning. I am not sure if it’s related to heartburn, but it’s annoying to be so tired and not be able to sleep. Most  mornings, I just get up around 5:45 and start my day instead of laying in bed getting frustrated. On the bright side, if I’m able to find time for a nap then I typically wake up feeling great :).

Finally, we had our first appointment with our Doula, and I am really glad that we chose her! She is knowledgeable, funny, and friendly  as well as supportive. She is actually a nurse by day who works with newborns, but as a doula, she will only be providing emotional and physical support; she won’t actually do any nurse-like activity. Our first appointment lasted a little more than 2 hours. We reviewed our birth plan and discussed the stages of labor. We also practiced a few different pain-relieving techniques. We also asked a ton of questions about everything from what’s normal in labor to breastfeeding support. We have our next meeting with her scheduled for early January… I can’t wait!
I hope everyone had a fabulous Thanksgiving! I’ll write more about my fun family-filled holiday soon.

26 weeks!

Today is Baby W’s 26 week birthday! Time is moving very quickly, and I am feeling great :). I have been focusing on eating a healthy diet and getting my walking in. I walked over 20 miles last week, and have clocked 15 miles so far this week. I can feel a big difference in my energy level and am sleeping much better. Since I am walking 3-6 miles a day, I am making sure to eat a little more and drink significantly more water everyday. I have also been stretching more, which has reduced my hip pains, and has helped me get more comfortable sleep. Thank goodness!

26 Weeks (14 to go)

Baby W is the size of a head of lettuce!

My major complaint still tends to be heartburn! It really does suck, and sneaks up when I least expect it. I have tried eating smaller meals, eliminating spicy food, and eating dinner at least 2 hours before bedtime, but very little works. The worst is when I wake up at 3am with awful heartburn. Thankfully, generic tums are still working to fend off the pain, but I would prefer to use something more natural to combat it. The midwife we met with during our last appointment suggested papaya, but I keep forgetting to pick it up at the store.

I also have plenty of great news to share. First, we chose our birth doula! I am very excited to work with her, and can’t wait for our first meeting to develop our birth plan. I know the birth plan is more of a guide and is tentative, since every labor is different, but having a plan will help me to feel more in control, and better about the whole thing. I have also started to research what I need to pack in my hospital bag. I am planning to get it together at the beginning of my third trimester in a few weeks – yay! I also love the idea of bringing the maternity nurses little gift bags, so I am going to begin brainstorming what can go in their little gift bags. At this point, I know they will include a copy of my birth plan, treats, and some baked goods.

Second, Baby W is kicking up a storm. He’s been kicking for a while now, but he’s picked up the pace considerably over the last few weeks. He really enjoys kicking early in the morning, around 5am or so. I guess it’s his way of preparing me for middle-of-the-night feedings :). I have to say feeling him kick is one of the most amazing things I have ever experienced.

Third, I am getting so excited for my baby shower! YAY! I am truly blessed to have amazing friends and family, and I can’t wait to spend time with everyone! Our families have been very generous — my parents are buying all of our cloth diapers, so we are set until Baby W is potty-trained! And, my in-laws just ordered our crib and crib mattress — yay!! So exciting :). I am so grateful for the love and generosity — thank you, thank you, thank you!

Finally, I am beginning our search for a nanny for when I return to work. As you may know, I am fortunate enough to work from home, so we are planning to keep Baby W home with me, and hire a nanny PT to help out while I am working.  There is still a lot of work to do on this front, but at least it’s started.

Hope you’re all having a great week!
Baby Dust!

 

 

24 WEEKs — 6 months!!!

Hi All! We are in our 6th month :). Just typing that makes me so VERY happy! I feel great, and Baby W is growing quickly (well, at least my belly is, so I assume it’s because he is :)). One of the best parts of being 24 weeks pregnant is the pretty constant kicking that I can feel — so exciting! His kicks can now also be felt from the outside, which is just remarkable! I still suffer from annoying heartburn, but tums and ice cream do the trick! Besides that, I also have some hip pain — apparently so they can loosed allowing them to grow to accommodate Baby W’s growth.
We’ve had an exciting couple of weeks! First, my brother got married! YAY! We had such a wonderful time celebrating his marriage — it was great! He married one of the most wonderful women I know, so I am beyond thrilled for both of them. It was a tiring trip, but so worth it. We also got to visit with a lot of family, friends, and loved ones, which was a very  nice treat.

22 weeks, 4 days

Getting ready for the fun!

Next, my brother-in-law and sister-in-law are in town for a quick visit. We are having so much fun! They brought us such cute gifts for Baby W, including an adorable book (his very first one)! I am so exciting to read it to him for the first time. Yesterday, we went apple and pumpkin picking; I loved every second of the adventure! We picked just over 11 pounds of apple, and have since made homemade apple cider and a delicious apple pie. We also turned the pumpkin into a beautiful pumpkin pie with a scrumptious graham cracker crust. Yummy!

Yum!

We also have a lot going on in the baby planning world. We have been interviewing doulas, and hope to have our choice narrowed down soon. I know that I want a very natural birth, and want to put myself in the best place possible to avoid pain medication and medical interventions. I know this is not everyone’s choice, but I have always wanted this. We are also beginning to dip our toes into figuring out daycare options. Since I work from home, I am leaning towards a nanny who works PT. I would prefer to have Baby W home with me for a bit, and then eventually go the more traditional day care route.

So much to do!

Hope you’re all well 🙂

18 Weeks (in my 5th month!!)

18 weeks! YAY! I used my doppler a couple nights ago and again heard the beautiful heartbeat of our little Baby W. Honestly, I could listen to it everyday — I just love the fast heart thumping sound and knowing that our baby is thriving in my belly! Speaking of my belly, it’s definitely growing — I honestly didn’t think I would show this much so early. I keep telling myself that it means that Baby W is growing healthily in there, so it makes me happy!

My nausea has pretty much gone away, which is a huge relief. The biggest challenge right now is heartburn! No matter what I eat it plagues me through most of the day. I can typically deal with it, but at night, I rely on Tums to help me sleep. I am doing my best to avoid foods that trigger the pain, but honestly almost everything I eat triggers it, so it’s not that easy to just avoid food. LOL.

I am not-so-patiently waiting our 20-week appointment — it’s still over 2 weeks away! Ugh… During that appointment, we have our in-depth ultrasound and we will find out the gender of our little person. I can’t wait! The in-depth ultrasound also provides many pics of our baby, and checks its major organs to make sure they are developing correctly. It will be an exciting day! At this point, I am think our baby is a boy, but most of my family is voting girl! I guess we’ll just have to wait until 9/17 to find out 🙂

My mom came in town yesterday – yay! We are heading to my brother’s fiance’s bridal shower in TN, so we have a good amount of driving ahead of us. One of my best friends is joining us, and I know we’ll have a FABULOUS TIME! I love celebrating LOVE! I hope you all have a wonderful and very safe Labor Day Weekend!
Baby Dust!

 

GOOD NEWS!

Baby W is perfectly beautiful and waving hello!! I am so in love already!!! We saw him/her moving all over the place and heard it’s beautiful heartbeat! I can’t believe how much s/he has grown over the last few weeks and how much it now looks like a BABY!

Baby W -- 12 weeks, 4 days

Just perfect!

 

YAY 🙂

Cautiously Optimistic!

Whew… It’s been an exciting couple of day! First, I actually won an argument with Aetna. Apparently, there was some sort of “computer glitch” which caused them to deny my IVF claims, so everything will be reviewed and approved shortly! Thank goodness for small miracles 🙂

Secondly, I am feeling super positive about this cycle! Yesterday morning, I woke up with a sore right ovary. As the day lingered on, I started to feel my left  ovary. They actually feel similar to how they felt prior to the transfer — large and uncomfortable. I am also more bloated, have awful indigestion, am drinking more, and am exhausted. I called the doctor’s office due to the pain my ovaries were causing, and, after a few questions, the nurse explained that I have a mild case of Ovarian Hyper Stimulation Syndrome (OHSS). This typically happens before the retrieval or transfer, and is caused by the stimulation meds — basically your ovaries over-produce follicles and begin to fill with fluid. This apparently can also happen after the transfer, and is usually triggered by an increase in HCG (the pregnancy hormone) in your system! When I met with my RE this morning, he checked my ovaries and my weight (ugh!), and confirmed that I have a mild case of OHSS. He also said that this is GOOD news because it most likely means that I am pregnant :). I hope he’s right 🙂

Thursday, here I come!

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