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What a difference a year makes…

Last year at this time, I was just a few days past my embryo transfer, and was hoping and praying for a miracle. I had already been through so much — multiple miscarriages, lots of tests, a ton of poking and prodding by my doctors, and then a shift to try IVF as last resort to help me get and stay pregnant. Thankfully, it worked! I vividly remember the call from my doctor telling me that I was pregnant and then suffering through hyper-stimulated ovaries for weeks on end until my HCG levels normalized.

During the first trimester, we went in for an ultrasound to check on our baby’s growth every week. Those appointments were both frightening and exciting. Seeing the amazing changes and growth that embryo went through was truly remarkable, but I was terrified about having another miscarriage. Week after week, I was reassured that he was growing and everything was normal. I had never wanted to be “normal” so badly in my life. Thankfully, my 2nd and 3rd trimesters were normal — I was healthy and little man was healthy — and I had a relatively “easy” delivery!

I didn’t realize how hard my fertility journey was on me and my psyche. I really wasn’t myself for so long. Going through years of pain and loss wore me down. Luckily, I have an amazing support network that helped me to continue in our journey to have a child. Now that we have our son, I know that every ounce of pain, every tear, and every loss was worth the happiness I now have. My soul has been renewed; I am happier, more positive, and feel better about life. I am back to the woman I was before all of this started, and am SO grateful for the life I have. It’s truly amazing the difference a year can make…

Baby dust to those of you who are still in the midst of your struggle — I hope and pray that you get your miracle soon!

 

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Baby W is 6 weeks old!

It’s hard to believe, but tomorrow is Baby W’s 6 week birthday. I honestly don’t know where the time has gone — I feel like he was just born last week. Because I am so busy being mommy, and of course getting little sleep, the days and weeks seem to run together. It’s actually nice not worrying too much about what day it is, how many meetings I have, and everything else that goes with work and life. The only things that have mattered over the last month and a half are taking care of Lewis and spending time with my hubby. ๐Ÿ™‚

The last 6 weeks have been quite remarkable. I feel like we’ve been on how to be parents crash course with a teacher who doesn’t speak English. We have learned his cues and cries, and watched him grow and change so much already. Baby W has become more alert, is smiling, and cooing — he’s just adorable! His hair has also gotten lighter, but his eyes are still a beautiful grey. I can’t wait to see what color they eventually turn. He loves to dance and play in his activity mat, he’s getting better at lifting his head during tummy time, and I really think he’ll be rolling over in the next month or so. One of his favorite activities continues to be eating, and it shows in his weight gain — he has to be pushing 12 pounds! Thankfully, he knows his nights from his days, but he doesn’t love napping during the day. I am trying to do a better job of reading his sleepy cues, so I can get him to sleep before he has a meltdown from being too sleepy. I have also learned that if he thinks I am going to sleep, then he is more likely to nod off. He also love walking, so I often put him in his baby carrier and we walk on the treadmill or outside (if the weather is nice). Typically the rocking motion puts him to sleep within minutes!

Being a mom truly is an amazing journey! I am loving every part of it, and I am grateful for a wonderful support network. My hubby is an amazing father, and he takes great care of me. He’s been cooking a ton and always takes Baby W at night so I can get a nap in before the nighttime feedings begin. Our family and friends have also been great — they’ve visited, sent gifts, brought food, and just been a fabulous support during this time of great transition. I honestly don’t know how people do this without support from their partner and loved ones!

Right now, I am searching for a nanny to watch Baby W when I return to work in a month. It’s so hard to find the “right” person to care for him. This is one of those time that I wish we lived closer to family — I am so jealous of friends who have family close by who can watch their kids. I have interviews set up this week and am making additional calls to a few more people — fingers crossed that we find the right person soon. I know s/he is out there… On the bright side, I work from home, so I’ll be able to spend time with my little guy during the day and should also be able to still feed him on demand. Yay!

As for work, I have mixed feelings about going back. Part of me is excited to return — I miss the thinking and creativity of my job. But, another part of me is sad that I won’t be able to spend all of my time with my son. I know that I will get used to it, and I will figure out how to find the right balance between caring for Baby W and getting my work done, but it will definitely be a HUGE adjustment…

For those out there who just had their little ones — congratulations again! I am sure you’re enjoying every second as much as I am. For those who are expecting, good luck with the rest of your pregnancies, and all my best for a quick and healthy delivery! And, finally, for those who are still trying, sending much love and baby dust to you!

Birth Story

I finally have a free minute or two to share our birth story :). As you all know, I have been planning a natural childbirth since before I was pregnant. To help accomplish this, we hired a doula, went to childbirth classes, read and studied a lot, and developed a birth plan to communicate our wishes. Obviously, we don’t always have complete control over labor and delivery, but I wanted to be as prepared as possible since I knew that would help me get through the intensity and pain of labor.

So here’s the story of the birth of our beautiful son:
On Monday, I woke up and worked from home. I was still having consistent contractions, but they weren’t strong. As instructed by the doctor the night before, I called our OB’s office and made an appointment for Tuesday to discuss induction. As the day progressed, I started to Read more…

He’s here!

I never made it to my doctor’s appointment on Tuesday morning because our little boy decided it was finally time to enter the world. I went to the hospital around 930 on Monday night, and he arrived at 4:28 on Tuesday morning weighing in at a whopping 9 pounds, 6 ounces! His birth was everything I wanted and more (I’ll post the full story soon) – I am so very blessed!

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False Alarm

What a night! I was having regular contractions for a good part of the day, which of course made me very excited. Around 7:30, my contractions got very regular (between 4-6 mins) and started to intensify. Around 9:30 or so I called my doula and our doctor to let them know, and was told if the length between then shortened and stayed regular and/or they continued to intensify then to go to the hospital for observation. At around 10:30 or so, my contractions started to come every 2-3 minutes, so we headed to our hospital for observation.

When we arrived, the nurse took my vitals and hooked me up to a monitor. Sure enough I was having very regular contractions, but after a couple hours, they weren’t progressing. Our doctor examined me, and I was 3cm dilated, so she offered to speed things up with pitocin or send us home to wait for labor to progress. I decided that going home and waiting was the best option. Tomorrow, we have another doctor’s appointment to discuss next steps. I am would definitely prefer to avoid induction, but also want to make sure we do what is best for Baby W.

More news to come tomorrow ๐Ÿ™‚

Hugs and baby dust!

Bye bye mucous plug

I decided to stay busy yesterday to keep my mind off of labor. Just like a watched pot never boils, maybe my body just needs me to not think about labor. My BF came into town on Friday, and she has been helping do so some last-minute baby prep. She put the pack and play together as well as the baby swing. She also cooked some and accompanied me to the grocery store – definitely a big help!! I also got some cleaning and organizing done, so our house is ready for our little guy. I spent a lot of time on my feet, bouncing on my exercise ball, and walking on my treadmill… I think it may have worked ๐Ÿ™‚

Labor is definitely getting closer. My body is showing more signs, so I know it’s only a matter of time. I was having stronger and more consistent contractions yesterday (6-7 mins apart). Even more exciting, I lost my mucous plug late last night, which is a good sign that my cervix is fully effaced and starting to dilate more. Yay! I got a good night’s sleep (and hubby made a very yummy breakfast) and am feeling crampy this morning, which is also a sign of impending labor. Today, I am trying to relax so I have plenty of energy for labor. I am going to bounce on my exercise ball and walk some on the treadmill, but the goal today is rest.

Hugs and baby dust!

Still Waiting on Baby W

I am officially past my due date, and trying to patiently wait for our little boy to make his appearance. I will admit patience isn’t my strength — I am used to having some control, and at this point, the only one in control is Baby W. I guess I should just get used to giving up control since I hear that it’s not always possible in motherhood :).

We had a good appointment on Wednesday, and I am definitely progressing. My cervix is still 2cm dilated, but it’s gone from 50 to 80% effaced, which means that we are getting closer and closer to D-day. Effacement is basically how thin my cervix is — it has to be 100% effaced for dilation to really get going — so the doctor was happy with our progress. I am also having more consistent contractions — they are still pretty mild, but they have gotten as close as 7-8 minutes apart! I am thrilled that my contractions are getting closer together, but it’s a bit of tease since every night that I go to sleep, I am convinced that I’ll wake up in a few hours ready in “real” labor.

Thank you for all the prayers, happy thoughts, comments, and emails — I appreciate them! I look forward to sharing some baby pictures very soon!

Hugs and Baby Dust to all!

40 Week Appointment

We had our 40-week appointment today, and all is well in baby land! I am still 2cm dilated and about 80% effaced (compared to 50% last week), which means my body is making progress and labor is near. Of course, at this point, it has to be near… hahaha! My doctor also stripped my membranes again to try to help encourage my body to start more active labor — we’ll just have to wait and see if it works :).

I am feeling pretty good, but am definitely ready to meet our little boy. As you all know, I am a bit of a control freak, so it’s weird to have so little control over when he will come into the world. More importantly, I don’t want to be induced. Induction reduces your chances of a vaginal delivery, and tends to make labor more painful and longer — two things I would like to avoid!

Here’s hoping for more contractions!

Baby dust to all ๐Ÿ™‚

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The flu is everywhere :(

39+ weeks pregnant and waiting for our little boy to make his appearance into the world :). On one hand, I want him hear right now — not because I’m uncomfortable, but because I really want to meet him — but on the other hand, I want him to come when he’s ready. After all, he probably knows best :). With all the medical advances made, I would think that doctors would be able to accurately predict when labor will begin, but in the end, it’s up to the baby to get things started when he’s ready.

Other than waiting for Baby W, I am doing everything I can to stay healthy. As you all probably know, the flu is spreading like wildfire and there is also a yucky stomach virus making the rounds. I got my flu shot (and so did hubby), and thankfully, I work from home, so am not around people (or their germs) very often. When I go out and am around people, I wash my hands frequently and use hand sanitizerย  to protect myself from the yuckies. I also clean our house with bleach and do my best to eat healthy and get plenty of rest. So far, it’s working!

I am thankful that so far my stay-healthy-obsession has worked for me, but unfortunately I can’t say the same for everyone around me. My dad is sick — he started to feel sick on Friday, and has pretty much been out of commission since then. He’s not sure if it’s the flu because he won’t go to the doctor, but I certainly hope it’s only a cold that will pass quickly. My doula is also sick. I spoke to her yesterday and she didn’t sound great, and then she called me today and sounded awful. She also thinks she may have the flu :(. She went to the doctor yesterday for lab work and started Tamiflu just in case. At this point, it will be at least 4-5 days before she’ll be able to join us at the hospital.

I am not stressing since there is nothing we can do about our doula being sick. We are very well-prepared for this journey, and will get through it with or without her. Hubby and I have gone to plenty of classes and had a couple of meetings with our doula to review what to do to control pain naturally. We will just have to rely on this training to get us through labor and delivery :). I know we can do it!

Stay healthy everyone!

Baby Dust!!

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39 Weeks — 2 cm dilated!

Our baby is 39-weeks old today — yay! He is about the size of watermelon and probably weighs about 8-8.5 pounds :). At my appointment, his heartbeat was in the 130s, he’s still head down, and he’s dropped a little more into my pelvic area. I am also happy to report that I am 1-2cm dilated, which could possibly mean that labor is close. Of course, it could also mean that labor is a week away, but my fingers are crossed for the former. My doctor was happy with my progress, especially since this is our first baby :). I am planning to keep walking since I think that will help me stay strong during labor and will help open my hips for delivery.

As for the nursery, hubby got a ton more work done last night, and so it should be completed very soon! I can’t wait to post pictures — you are all going to love it!

Baby dust!

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