The Waiting Game
If I’ve learned nothing else, I’ve learned patience throughout this journey. In 2 weeks, we (FINALLY) go back for our first trimester ultrasound and screening. The waiting is making me a nuts. I honestly wish we had an ultrasound machine at home so I could see Baby W whenever I want. I feel like everything is okay, but since there is no way for me to know for sure, I sometimes let my nerves get the best of me. Ugh…
Last night, although I was beyond exhausted and had to wake up early to go into the city for work, I had trouble falling asleep. My mind was racing and I literally got up to pee 6 times. I also continue to have dreams that often jolt me from my happy slumber. I took a quick nap on the train home, and am heading to bed very soon. I just hope that my mind stops racing long enough for me to fall asleep tonight.
I really hate being such a nervous Nelly. I always wonder if “normal” pregnant women stress so much, or is it just because we haven’t had the greatest luck in the pregnancy department that I worry… I am trying to focus on the many pregnancy symptoms that signal that everything is going well — I am exhausted, nauseous, have swollen breasts and a growing tummy, as well as vivid dreams and round ligament pain as my uterus grows to make room for our growing baby — but there are times my nerves get the best of me.
Time to take a few deep breaths — so many parts of this process are out of our control, and the waiting game is one of them.