Day 42 — Superstitious
Today’s intention is to visualize a successful pregnancy!
Do you ever laugh at your own interesting silliness? I have always been superstitious. I think it’s because I grew up playing sports. I had lucky socks, played for a team that didn’t wash our uniforms during tournaments because it was bad luck (we had a few different uniforms, but it was still gross), and even had pre-game and in-game rituals that I followed religiously. Even to this day, I have certain superstitions that I just can’t seem to let go. For example, I am a little obsessed with the number 8. Growing up, I wore 8 (or some combination of numbers that would add or multiply to 8) on all my sports teams. For softball and track, I was 8 or 88 and for basketball, I wore 42 (4×2 =8) or 44 (4+4 = 8). Even now, when I play in adult leagues, I am always #8. So, it’s only natural, that during my fertility journey I would continue with my superstitious ways. Thankfully, my body seems to be cooperating. At the doctor this morning, I was in my usual ultrasound position, and much to my surprise, the doctor found another follicle in my left ovary. So, now, each ovary has 8 happy follicles for a total of 16! I was thrilled when I realized that each ovary had 8 eggs — it was as if the universe was saying to me — don’t worry, everything is going to be alright! I don’t know how to explain it, but it just helped me to feel better!
I am grateful for 8 happy eggs in each ovary; a beautiful, sunny day; my brother’s fiance; my wonderful hubby; great friends; my health; IVF; and great doctors and nurses!
I love and accept myself!