Day 31 – Worn out
Today’s intention is to rest!
Today, I am worn out. I am not sure why — I got a lot of rest last night, have been eating healthy, and don’t feel overly stressed. Maybe it’s from going off of birth control and basically forcing my period to begin a couple of weeks after the last one, or maybe it’s allergies, but I haven’t felt this worn out in a very long time. I am going to take a nap this afternoon and go for a walk. I have been drinking a lot of water to stay hydrated, but I really think I just need to sleep. On the bright side, I had a good acupuncture appointment this morning. My acupuncturist shared a happy story about one of her clients who conceived via IVF after trying unsuccessfully for 2 years and suffering many miscarriages — sounds familiar! It made me smile to know that soon — very, very soon — we will be one of her success stories!
I can’t wait to share our IVF success story — I know that all the waiting, medications, injections, heartache, and frustration will be worth it. As soon as we hear our baby’s heartbeat and I feel our baby moving in my belly, I will forget all the struggle and know that every ounce of pain was more than worth it! I can’t wait for those days, but for now, I will continue to focus on what is within my control — healthy living, eating, positive thinking, and timely medication-taking.
I am grateful for the love and support I have received from friends, family, and loved ones; my wonderful hubby; my puggle, Kahli; my brother and soon-to-be-sis-in-law for a beautiful email that made me cry as well as many, many kind words; my parents for everything; my in-law for telling me it’s okay to miss mother’s day; and, for my health!
I love and accept myself!
PS — just got great news, Aetna finally approved my IVF meds and I will get them in time to start on Saturday. YAY!