Day 20 — Up to the Challenges :-)
Today’s intention is to be positive!
Today, I am feeling up to the Challenges. I had a great workout last night, and like it always does, it really helped me to relax and put things in perspective. I am grateful to have a world-premier fertility doctor and insurance to cover our very expensive medical bills. I really don’t know how someone can afford 15-20k per IVF cycle?!?! It’s crazy to me that insurance doesn’t cover infertility — it is a disease — but that’s a whole other blog conversation…
Yesterday, I was feeling overwhelmed by the process — the appointments, the injections, the retrieval, the transfer, etc, etc. I was worried that I wouldn’t be strong enough to get through everything and, on top of that, I have to figure out how to manage my work, our very busy schedules, and our social calendar. I am fine with changing as many things as necessary to make this work, but I still want to have some normal in my life. The normal parts of my life will help me get through the craziness — they ground me in a way that makes the crazy not feel that awful. Yesterday, I was focusing too much on the details instead of on the big picture. I will be pregnant soon with a very healthy baby — and in the end, that is what matters! I am a strong person who has accomplished many great things, and because of this strength and perseverance, I will get through this. Plus, I am not in this alone. I have a wonderful and loving husband, a very supportive and strong family, as well as amazing friends who have supported me every step of the way. I know that everyone wants us to be successful and that they will do everything they can to help us through this journey. One of my weaknesses is that I am not good at asking for help. I am typically the one helping everyone else. But this time, I need the support because I know that I will not be able to do this alone. Maybe this is a lesson — sometimes you need other people to help you through the struggles, and that’s okay. 🙂
I am grateful for wonderful friends; my super hubby; my amazing family; a wonderful doctor and supportive nurses; my health; my puggle, Kahli; and sunshine!
I love and accept myself!